Death scares me immensely. My stomach turns in fear just by the sight of the letters that spell the word. I can't write about the reason why, because it feels like my heart will break. I can't handle a broken heart right now.
A friends father died today. Now he's just gone and I can hardly believe it. What can one say to make this any better? My words will only be sound breaking the silence. Nothing else. He has been sick for a while but they found the reason why. I was so happy for him and his family. I thought maybe he'd be able to live a normal life again, without crutches or a wheelchair. He had been sick for so long that his body couldn't handle any more sickness. He died of a cold that turned out to be more severe than they could ever imagine.
You see death in movies all the time. Read about it. But in times like these you understand how much you distance yourself. Death on a screen is nothing but acting. In a book it's nothing but words. In real life death is pain and emptiness. But you cannot understand it until you've faced it. And facing death leaves deep scars.
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